I Didn't Know

*that over two years later and I am missing him even more

*that when he visits me in my dreams, its like he is really there. Its his voice even.

*seeing his name on his grave is still soooo bewildering to me

*holidays without him make it hard to celebrate the holidays

*how hard life would be without him. I imagined it, I thought I would know, but it is harder than I ever thought.

*hearing his voice on my cell phone makes me smile, then cry

*living so far from home is sometimes a blessing. It would be even harder being reminded of him and the many places I have memories of him if I was in Kville.

Dear Papa,

Another Christmas season without you. This one finds me in West Virginia. So far from home. I miss you so much. This world isn't as fun without you in it. But I am trying my hardest to be strong and to enjoy the many blessings I have. Would be nice if you would give me this weekends lottery numbers. =) I would buy us the nicest Cabin Crusier I could find.

I love and MISS you SO much it hurts.

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