God's Timing is PERFECT

God's timing is perfect.

I once read in a Max Lucado book that in God's plan, every life is long enough and every death is timely. We shall all face death, but thanks to Jesus, we only face it's shadow.

That is entirely hopeful to me as I continue my life without a Papa Bud.

Last summer, I couldn't bear to think about moving to Richmond while Papa was so sick. But I knew in June that it was inevitable, and by September we would be in Richmond and our in home in NC would be for sale and there was nothing I could do about it.

In July, me and the boys traveled to Richmond to look at some properties. Mama Jo and Papa Bud took care of Tate & Ashton for me the morning we left.

Papa was not having a good day. He looked so weak and disoriented. As I drove the almost 4 hours to Richmond my mind could not accept that this was going to be where my new home is and that I would be so far from Papa.

What if I got the call that he was dying and I couldn't make it in time? I imagined myself trying to make the 4 hour drive safely and I knew it would be the hardest thing to do.

But God, in His infinite wisdom, took Papa home before I ever had to face that obstacle.

We moved a month after his death. I never had to face that dreaded phone call and tortuous drive.

God, in His perfect timing, made sure that Papa was safe in Heaven before I left home.

And now, almost a year to the date of Papa's passing, we will be welcoming Baby Bean into our family.

This was not a planned pregnancy. AT ALL. It is still quite shocking to me. I thought our baby days were behind us. But God, in HIS timing, knew that our family could use some love and hope come August. And instead of dreading that month, we almost are looking forward to it. Thanks to Baby Bean. Thanks to God.

I find out in a few weeks, God willing, what Baby Bean is. I'm hoping, praying for a little boy that I can name after Papa Bud. Of course, only God knows right now if that will come to pass but I truly want and need to pass Papa's name onto a living creature so that the circle remains unbroken.

I am still a little nervous that something could go wrong, I am trying to give that fear to God.

His timing after all, is perfect.