Dreaming of Him

 

I had the most wonderful dream of Papa Bud last night.

In it, me & the kids were visiting Mama Jo and we were getting ready to leave. 

We were outside packing up my min van and my mom told me I should go and tell Papa Bud goodbye. "You're right" I said and I go inside. 

At the doorway I am met by my Uncle Clyde, who died suddenly in March of 2003. 

He is standing at the door --just like he always would do when he was alive, just watching us all pile into the car to leave. 

He gives me a big hug and in his voice he tells me to "be safe" and he loves me. 

I go into the kitchen and there is Papa Bud. He is sitting in his chair at the kitchen table. I lean over him and hug him tightly. It is him. I smell his cologne. I kiss his cheek. His face is scratchy where he needs to shave. He tells me in his voice "I love you". I hold onto him tightly. In my dream I can hear myself thinking "this could be the last time you hug him so make it count".  I can tell I am about to make him cry so I stop hugging him and I pick up a few of my sons crayons on the table and get ready to leave.

I go into the living room and think to myself I am going to leave him a note (we used to leave each other notes). I write him a note with one of the crayons and I go to lay it on his table beside his recliner and I see he has written me a note. 

It simply says "1 John 1:4".  Even though this is a dream, the handwriting is his.

I tear it off the paper it is on and stick it in my pocket and leave.

This is where I wake up. I instantly googled 1 John 1:4.

We write this to make our joy complete. 

Wow. A message from Papa from Heaven.

The part before verse 4 is this:

That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked upon, and our hands have handled, of the Word of life;

For the life was manifested, and we have seen it, and bear witness, and shew unto you that eternal life, which was with the Father, and was manifested unto us; that which we have seen and heard declare we unto you, that ye also may have fellowship with us: and truly our fellowship is with the Father, and with his Son Jesus Christ. 

 And these things write we unto you, 

that your joy may be full.

I am walking on air today.

I miss him so much. I don't know what God allows from Heaven. I think Heaven is so complete that our loved ones who are there don't see the pain and agony we are left to deal with. But I do feel God sends us signs, wonderful signs from our loved ones. And this was my sign from Papa and Clyde.

Thank you God for a message from heaven.